I should have known when I woke up punching my pillow this morning that it would be a day filled with a quiet rage. As so many others feel during the grieving process, I am now battling with anger that is threatening to eat me alive. It is horrible. I am at war with myself. Feeling mad at our situation...then feeling guilty about feeling angry...then feeling disappointed that I'm not feeling happy or being more optimistic. And then back to feeling mad. This is the endless cycle I have been facing lately and I am working SO hard to fight it. To poop butterflies. To only focus on me and what I can control. Unfortunately, I cannot control other people.
Today, I received my very first blog hater. I am not quite sure what prompted such a mean message. But it hurt. Badly. At first, I deleted the message and wasted the time I should have been finishing my homework before class with a full-fledged crying fit. But when the tears cleared, I decided that I wasn't going to let that a-hole get the best of me. I was half tempted to seek full-on revenge by posting the commenter's email address publicly, but revenge will never heal my heart. Oh, I'm sure it would put a band-aid on my wound, but ultimately it would become infected with the sour feeling of inflicting an 'eye-for-an-eye'.
As much as I would looooooove to give that you-know-what a big giant F.U. and a double birdie, that is not what Jesus would do. So, I've settled on something different. Inspired by The Shine Project, I would like your support in having a Callie Marie Shine Project today (and maybe every day). Today, let's choose kindness. Help me bully this meanie with love and affection. Today, go do something kind for someone else in Callie's memory. Maybe you leave a nice note on the ladies' bathroom that will boost someone's self-esteem. Maybe you could pay for the person's coffee behind you in line. Give a compliment to a random stranger. Send an email to someone you love telling them how special they are to you. Bonus points if you can get your random stranger to pay the kindness forward!! :-) I've always heard that you have to say 5 nice things to make up for one mean thing. Well, how about we make that 500?
Please help heal my heart by posting your random acts of kindness below.
I found out that this comment was generated by a spammer and I fell for it! Comments will now have to await approval from me before becoming live on this site. If ya ain't got nuthin' good to say, don't say nuthin' at all. Nuff said.